The old saying about the waiting being the hardest part is so true. I learned that early on when I had to wait 4 days from diagnosis to initial Dr. appointment.
And now I'm stuck waiting again... for my exact chemo start date.
We met with my nurse practitioner, Suzanne, on Monday. She gave me another binder (this is my second official "cancer information binder" now) with all of the chemo information - what each drug does, when to call in an emergency, a calendar to write in all of my infusion days, shot dates, and Dr. appointments, prescriptions, etc. We went over all possible side effects, and toured the facility. Everyone there is very nice, and the recliners that I'll be "relaxing" in for 4 hours every 2 weeks seem great. I kept thinking that as great as that all was..the fact remains that the next 16 weeks are going to be very difficult. But the truly great thing is that although all of this is going to be hard..it's all for a very, very, very good reason.
I keep saying that having cancer is a full time job. I don't understand how people can continue to work while being treated for the simple fact that I have to be somewhere almost every day. If I'm not scheduled for an infusion or a shot or a Dr. appointment, I have a ton of meds I'll have to take. And when I'm not taking the meds, the nurse advised I'll probably feel really run down.... and guess what!? Then it's time to start the process all over again.
So now I wait. They said we are just waiting on insurance authorization and then they will call me with my start date. It will be next week for sure though. I hate waiting. I know it's going to suck, but let's just get going so the sucky part can be over quicker!!
And now I'm stuck waiting again... for my exact chemo start date.
We met with my nurse practitioner, Suzanne, on Monday. She gave me another binder (this is my second official "cancer information binder" now) with all of the chemo information - what each drug does, when to call in an emergency, a calendar to write in all of my infusion days, shot dates, and Dr. appointments, prescriptions, etc. We went over all possible side effects, and toured the facility. Everyone there is very nice, and the recliners that I'll be "relaxing" in for 4 hours every 2 weeks seem great. I kept thinking that as great as that all was..the fact remains that the next 16 weeks are going to be very difficult. But the truly great thing is that although all of this is going to be hard..it's all for a very, very, very good reason.
I keep saying that having cancer is a full time job. I don't understand how people can continue to work while being treated for the simple fact that I have to be somewhere almost every day. If I'm not scheduled for an infusion or a shot or a Dr. appointment, I have a ton of meds I'll have to take. And when I'm not taking the meds, the nurse advised I'll probably feel really run down.... and guess what!? Then it's time to start the process all over again.
So now I wait. They said we are just waiting on insurance authorization and then they will call me with my start date. It will be next week for sure though. I hate waiting. I know it's going to suck, but let's just get going so the sucky part can be over quicker!!
Soon this will all be a distant memory. I can't wait to hear you say I'm done with treatments. You are so very brave and loved by so many people. The waiting and the unknown of exactly how you will react to the treatments is difficult. Those who went before you know exactly the anxiety you are feeling and wish you didn't have to make this journey. You are truly an inspiration. Love Mama
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