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Lucky 21

21 has always been my lucky number. It's a number that just seems to always pop up in my life. My birthday is on May 21st. Matt, my lucky charm, also was born on the 21st - of April. It's silly, I know.. but I just always like to think fondly of the number 21.

Ironically enough, my dooblay was two months ago today- on January 21. I like to think that's the day I became cancer free so of course that's a lucky day! And here we are today - March 21. That means it has to be a good day, right? Round 2 on my lucky number day!? If nothing else, it means we are halfway through the Red Devil. The rest of this week may or may not be bad. But I will know that I have 2 rounds down, and 2 (of the AC) left to go. I know that I am 25% done with the entire chemo regimen after today. And for that, I'm going to feel lucky.

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  1. MamaMarch 22, 2011 at 7:48 AM

    Always count your blessings and keep the positive attitude. More than half the battle with cancer is attitude. I know it's hard sometimes and you have to let go, but come back to the positive side and know you will be totally well in the near future. I will always be with you. Love Mama

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