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Nightmare on Lexington Way

Round 4 was like my own personal horror movie. It wasn't as bad as Round 1, but close. I'm not sure if it's because I got cocky again and assumed since I was done with the AC infusion I would just breeze through the week, or what. But I feel like I had a 4 day go round with Freddy Kreuger. I wasn't doing so bad, and then the chemo bitch slapped me. Over and over and over again. Besides the tornado that was raging in my head, I was getting really dizzy and lightheaded every time I stood up. My heart was racing, and my anxiety was at a peak. Acupuncture on Saturday didn't help at all, and I was starting to get that hopeless feeling again - that I was NEVER going to have another good day...

Sunday was the first day I felt somewhat normal. We enjoyed a really nice Easter at Matt's aunt's house. I still wasn't fully functioning though, and by Sunday night the girls and I were all a bit emotionally unstable. The girls have too much Easter candy to blame it on... I have too much chemo to blame it on.

Yesterday was even better, and then today I feel great!! I've learned my lesson though about getting too cocky. I'm very cautiously saying that I think I'm done with the AC side effects finally... (I'm sure the Neulasta pain will kick in now though).

I had an appointment with Dr. Adler today. It's been a while since I've seen him and I actually missed him a bit. It made me laugh when he said I "kicked ass" with the AC- it doesn't feel that way sometimes. He gave me the lowdown on the Taxol side effects: possible rash (ugh), neuropathy in my fingers and toes, and body aches. Apparently the Taxol doesn't cause as much nausea which is good. He also reiterated that people who have a hard time with the AC usually breeze through the Taxol, and vice versa. He's not sure where I fall in that though since I had 2 really bad rounds and 2 not terribly horrible rounds. Clearly we'll find out next week though.

Regardless, 4 rounds are down. 4 to go. I got this far, I know I can finish this out (even though I wish I didn't have to.)

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  1. MamaApril 27, 2011 at 7:43 AM

    We all wish you didn't have to do this! I've said it 1,000+ times, cancer sucks! You are the bravest person I know. Believe in your heart you will breeze through the last of the chemo and you will! No one should ever deal with Freddy Kreuger - ah a new name for chemo. Dr. Adler knows you "kicked ass" with "AC" and you will do the same with "Taxol". Half way there! Love Mama

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