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Fantastic

The past few days have been absolutely fantastic. Matt took me to Half Moon Bay for an overnight getaway to celebrate the halfway point on Thursday. We stayed at this nice little Inn right on the beach. I've always loved everything about the ocean, especially falling asleep to the sound of waves crashing, so it was just what I needed to relax and rejuvenate. We had a delicious dinner out (basil pesto risotto with scallops - thank GOD the chemo didn't mess with those flavors!!) and I even had a glass of wine! I wasn't planning on drinking until I finished treatment in June..but I decided I deserved one glass. Apparently wine is one of those things that can taste bad while on Cytoxin. And seeing how my taste buds have been all crazy lately I was scared to ruin one of my favorite drinks. But lucky for me, wine still tastes great!

On Friday we had the best surprise - a visit from my cousin Justin and his wife Annie. They live in NY and are out here for the weekend for the Big Sur marathon. Justin knows first hand what I am going through. Not only did my Aunt Maria battle breast cancer, but Justin also had lymphoma years ago. When I was first diagnosed he sent me an email that I still read occasionally. It's exceptionally inspirational and motivating, and helped me get in the right frame of mind from the get go. I know this may be reaching, but as I was falling asleep last night it occurred to me how odd it is that they happened to be out in California right at this point in my treatment. Right at the halfway point. Right at the point that I was starting to have massive anxiety about my upcoming infusion and was getting that hopeless, scared, "I can't do it anymore" feeling. We only saw them for a little over an hour, but it was so uplifting and wonderful. It was something I never expected, yet did so much for me.

And then there's today...nothing exceptional happened today. Just an awesome day with my little ladies. A park playdate with good friends over lunch and baking homemade chocolate chip cookies afterward equals a great Saturday in my book.

The past few days have been perfect. After a rough round 4, these days were what I needed to not only feel normal, but to remind me why I am doing this. I love my life!

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  1. MamaMay 1, 2011 at 6:52 AM

    Things happen for a purpose and Justin and Annie being in California with you at just that moment in time is one of them. They are wonderful people and just what the dr. ordered for you to get through the next part of the treatments. Yes, the girls and your wonderful husband are what you are fighting for. Life is wonderful after cancer and you must remember that. Love Mama

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