My hair is growing back!!! On my head, at least. I keep trying to not look at it and examine it every day, but it's hard when I spend so much time home alone. But there is honest to goodness hair growth going on! Sadly, I see a few gray ones in the mix. And I won't be able to dye it for at least a year (have to wait until all the chemo is totally out of my system or crazy stuff can happen with the color). Matt was joking this morning that it would be funny if my hair looks like his. Umm.. funny HOW my love?! But it was funny when we started thinking of Halloween costumes we could dress up as together....
On a more interesting note, my eyelashes and eyebrows continue to fall out. I have 2 eyelashes on my right eye, and about 6 on my left. The brows are SO bad that I had to break out the eyebrow kit I got back in February. I had a doctor appointment this morning and lost track of time. I was rushing to put my "face" on and on my way out I asked Matt how my brows looked. He mentioned that one was a lot thicker than the other. Damn. But I didn't have time to fix it. I kept looking in the car mirror to see how bad it was. It looked like two fat caterpillars were laying on my forehead...not at all equal in width. I'm getting used to ignoring people looking at me. Or when I catch random stares, I've started pretending that they are just amazed by how good I rock the cancer look. Of course no one said anything until my radiation dudes saw me. They are a chatty group of guys and always comment on my shoes, hat, or something. Today they both looked at me and asked me if I had "done something different." My head was screaming "Yes, OBVIOUSLY I put my eyebrows on all jacked up! Give me a break!!" But instead I just calmly said "Nope. Nothing!" And bit my cheek so I wouldn't start cracking up.
My appointment with Dr. Metkus went really well this morning though. She told me how she "double" reinforced my hernia, and that short of falling off a horse, it should last a lifetime. Considering I am scared of horses and will never ride one, that means I am good.to.go! The girls are coming home tonight and that makes me SO happy. I hope they feel just as happy considering they love their sleepovers!
After seeing Dr. Metkus I had to go to the lab and have another CBC done. Of everything going on right now, having blood taken makes me sick to my stomach. I literally feel my tummy flip and my body sort of shrivel up at the thought. Sadly I can't get out of it though. My ankle and my right arm still have huge bruises from last week's surgery. Mauricio, my phlebotomist today, was so sweet - even though he said that I was making his job tough. He was determined to NOT use my right arm (thank God!). And, true to his word, he didn't!! He did have to try twice on the left arm though. So now I have two more bruises to go with my 5 from last week. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this is the last CBC I'll need for a while....
Now I'm contemplating if I should redo my eyebrows before I pick Reagan up or not............
On a more interesting note, my eyelashes and eyebrows continue to fall out. I have 2 eyelashes on my right eye, and about 6 on my left. The brows are SO bad that I had to break out the eyebrow kit I got back in February. I had a doctor appointment this morning and lost track of time. I was rushing to put my "face" on and on my way out I asked Matt how my brows looked. He mentioned that one was a lot thicker than the other. Damn. But I didn't have time to fix it. I kept looking in the car mirror to see how bad it was. It looked like two fat caterpillars were laying on my forehead...not at all equal in width. I'm getting used to ignoring people looking at me. Or when I catch random stares, I've started pretending that they are just amazed by how good I rock the cancer look. Of course no one said anything until my radiation dudes saw me. They are a chatty group of guys and always comment on my shoes, hat, or something. Today they both looked at me and asked me if I had "done something different." My head was screaming "Yes, OBVIOUSLY I put my eyebrows on all jacked up! Give me a break!!" But instead I just calmly said "Nope. Nothing!" And bit my cheek so I wouldn't start cracking up.
My appointment with Dr. Metkus went really well this morning though. She told me how she "double" reinforced my hernia, and that short of falling off a horse, it should last a lifetime. Considering I am scared of horses and will never ride one, that means I am good.to.go! The girls are coming home tonight and that makes me SO happy. I hope they feel just as happy considering they love their sleepovers!
After seeing Dr. Metkus I had to go to the lab and have another CBC done. Of everything going on right now, having blood taken makes me sick to my stomach. I literally feel my tummy flip and my body sort of shrivel up at the thought. Sadly I can't get out of it though. My ankle and my right arm still have huge bruises from last week's surgery. Mauricio, my phlebotomist today, was so sweet - even though he said that I was making his job tough. He was determined to NOT use my right arm (thank God!). And, true to his word, he didn't!! He did have to try twice on the left arm though. So now I have two more bruises to go with my 5 from last week. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this is the last CBC I'll need for a while....
Now I'm contemplating if I should redo my eyebrows before I pick Reagan up or not............
This blog post needs a picture...or at least a self-portrait. {;)
ReplyDeleteYou amaze me still!
The ones that stare are people that are sayig "there goes a great looking young woman with cancer and she's handling herself beautifully". They realize that it can hit young people as well as older ones and maybe take care of themselves or a loved one. You do carry yourself with confidence when I've been with you. Losing eyebrows was the hardest - I lost only one and had to try to "fix" it to match the other - comical at times! They do grow back. Love Mama
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