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Manic Monday

This week started off both good and bad. After a rough weekend with some majorly sore knees and a funk of a mood that I couldn't shake, today started off great. My knees are almost back to normal, and I started the day off with a massage (Thanks, Chris & Hannah!!). Since I wasn't much of a fun mom this weekend, I let Reagan stay home from school today and we had an awesome "Mommy/Reagy day." That girl could lift anyones spirits with her random statements and the way she breaks into dance at any given time.

Dr. Metkus' office called to re schedule my Weds appointment for today. Which was great news because my "little" lump has been burning and hurting a lot more lately. Turns out, I am the Queen of Hernias...and unlike the last one that was randomly discovered, there's no denying this one. They aren't sure if it was there all along, or if it is a product of the DIEP surgery. I guess it doesn't really matter the "hows" or "whys" of it though. (Except considering this is my second hernia this year, I'm thinking I should probably start doing some crunches as soon as I'm back on my feet...) I'm happy that it's been diagnosed and now we can fix it. Surgery is scheduled for July 15th. I can't believe it'll be my second surgery in less than 6 months. Thankfully though this surgery is outpatient, should only take 1 hour, and the recovery is NOTHING like the DIEP was (although really... WHAT could be that bad?) Dr. Metkus said I'll be laid up for about a week and unable to lift Charlie. But that I should still be able to do radiation...so that will be a conversation for Dr. Weller when I see him again later this month.

I'm not sure why, but the idea of a hernia really grosses me out. Especially when Dr. Metkus kept saying how they will go through the c section scar and push my "guts" back in, put mesh over it, and sew me back up. Seriously?! My guts are bulging out?! I mean, of course they are..I know what a hernia is..but sometimes there's a difference between knowing something, and having someone verbalize it over and over. And why is it that I'm fine with the fact that my boobs are actually my muffin top, but a small square of mesh in my abdomen makes me nauseous?

Oh, and one week from now I'll be relaxing at home after my LAST chemo. So overall, today was a very good day.

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  1. MamaJune 7, 2011 at 8:04 AM

    What can I say. It hasn't been easy for you but it could be worse. The chemo is just about over and the next step is to begin. A year from now this will all be a memory. Keep up the fighting spirit. Love Mama

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