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Yo-Yo

I feel like a yo-yo, I've decided. One minute (or day), I'm up..the next I'm down. Then I bounce back up, only to be catapulted back down again.

Last weekend, and most of last week, were so great!! I felt amazing and had such a good time with my family. Reagan had her first solo visit with my parents in Sacramento, which she absolutely loved. And we had a nice visit on Sunday when we went to pick her up.




 Saturday was spent visiting a very good high school friend, Holly, who has been one of my biggest cheerleaders these past few months. Her texts, gifts, and now visit have made me relish in the beauty of life and friendships. And, I must say I'm now totally in love with her son, Michael, and hope that he and Charlie do in fact get married some day. They seem to be well on their way with her stripping down to her diaper for him, and him rubbing her belly and saying "belly" repeatedly.

But then my bliss came to a crashing halt yesterday during Round 3. In one regards it was the best infusion yet. They gave me an  IV drip of Benadryl this time since I started having a bit of a reaction to the Red Devil last round. The Benadryl worked insanely fast and I was fast asleep before the Red Devil was even injected. Sleeping through an infusion is definitely the way to go, I've decided. We got home at 4:30 where I promptly fell asleep on the lazy boy (and I don't mean Matt!). Matt did wake me up for a quick dinner around 6:30 and then put me straight to bed. I slept through until 8 am today. That's an insane amount of sleep for me. So I don't know why I feel so completely exhausted today. I have done nothing all day, except take a quick shower (although with no hair, all my showers are quick these days), and go down to the Cancer Center for my lovely Neulasta shot.

The foggy headedness is quickly setting in. I feel myself slipping into the depths of chemo hell. But I take comfort in the fact that I only have ONE more Red Devil cocktail to go. We'll worry about the Taxol in a few weeks. Soon enough I'll be back on top...for good!

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  1. MamaApril 5, 2011 at 6:35 PM

    You've been through so much that exhaustion was due or overdue to set in. Relax and sleep when you can. Matt and everyone else is there to take care of you and the girls. Matt is due for some pampering when this is all over. You certainly married a gem. Only one more Red Devil to go and you're half way there with chemo. Hopefully Taxol won't be as bad but worry about that later. This will soon be over and a distant memory. Love Mama

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  2. Two GrohsApril 6, 2011 at 10:35 AM

    Love you. A few more days and you'll be feeling better. And we're on for Scrabble tonight. xo.

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  3. TitusApril 7, 2011 at 7:43 AM

    Love love love the pic of you all walking hand in hand!!!

    ~Jackie

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