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Wow, This Sucks!

So here I am, 4 days out of chemo infusion #1, and I have to say...it SUCKS. I have never been so tired, so nauseous, and so just out of it in my life. I'm not going to lie... I dread...like seriously DREAD having to do this 7 more times. Of course I have no choice. Somehow I'll muster through it..but I am not looking forward to it one freaking bit.

Can someone please develop a time warp and make it be June already??

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  1. MamaMarch 11, 2011 at 1:27 PM

    Wish I could have that time warp for you or wish I could do it for you - you have to do this one yourself. I know how you feel - been there - done that. Cancer does suck but it can and will be beat. Love Mama

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  2. TitusMarch 12, 2011 at 6:38 AM

    UGH!!! I'm so sorry!!! Hang in there... we are all thinking and praying for a SPEEDY recovery!!

    -Jackie

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  3. AnonymousMarch 13, 2011 at 2:45 PM

    "It's not what you gather, but what you scatter that tells what kind of life you have lived"

    STRONG PERSON

    A strong person knows how to keep their life in order. Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm ok" with a smile. Send this to a strong person. I just did. God is good. Change is coming. God saw your sadness and said hard times are over. If you believe in Him, send this to ten people including me. Be honest and send this to anyone who made you smile this year. J
    It may surprise you how many you get back. Thanks for making me smile.

    Live, Laugh, Love

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