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While not much has changed medically, I feel my whole world has changed over the past few weeks.

The routine is the same; wake up, take meds, and wait for whichever hospice person is coming that day. The boredom continues. The fact that it probably won’t change is setting in....big time. Monday is blood day, Thursday’s are results day.

The tears are coming easier and more frequently, I’m tired of needing help to do anything and everything. It’s getting harder to stay positive.

Reagan’s Birthday was this past Sunday. This was my second big goal. It was so bittersweet......I made it, but it’s most likely the last one I will.

So I’m giving myself a reprieve of being all perky and optimistic and I’m taking some time to process my emotions and just be sad.

Hopefully this will shake soon. Next goal is to see Chris in 2 weeks!

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