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Deja Vu

It's been so long since I've written. Mainly because I've been too busy living my life. My AWESOME life. Just to show how incredible it is, let me recap the past year - July 2012 - I walked 39 miles with the  amazing Rack Stars team in the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer. It was grueling, it was painful, it was the best experience of my life!! The very next day, the McNichol family hopped on a plane for Hawaii. YES, Hawaii!! Matt had promised me a trip to Hawaii when I was first diagnosed in 2010. His parents made good on that promise by taking us all last summer. The highlight of my trip was seeing Reagan surf, and taking a paddleboarding lesson. I have always wanted to paddleboard - so one more thing off the old bucket list. During my lesson I paddled over the coral break. As soon as I cleared it, an enormous sea turtle popped up in front of my board. I was terrified at first, and then regained my balance and really enjoyed the beauty of this incredible animal. It was so cool to see her just paddling away in the big blue ocean.

After Hawaii, I decided I wanted to teach junior high school English. I applied, was accepted, and enrolled in classes at Notre Dame de Namur University within a matter of weeks. I started classes in January 2013. After two semesters (with straight A's, btw), I only have two semesters left to go. And in a crazy twist of fate, I was hired at St. Robert's - the school Reagan attends- to teach seventh grade! I start this August and I will be teaching 6-8th grade English, 7th Reading & Religion. Life has NEVER been this good.

So of course there has to be a catch, right? Yep. Unfortunately. Two nights ago I was laying in bed and randomly gave myself a self breast exam. I found a lump. I freaked out.

Long story short.... I went to the doctor today hoping they would assuage my fears and tell me it's nothing. Instead, she told me it was in the exact area where a recurrence would happen and did a biopsy. WTF?! How is it that for the second time in my life I went to the doctor expecting them to pretty much tell me it was "nothing" only to walk out with a sore and bruised boob and a shaken conscience? Sometimes life isn't fair. And Charlie girl summed it up today in her usual four year old way. When she asked what happened to me and why couldn't she lay on my chest, I told her "Mommy had to have a few shots in her boobie today." She looked incredulous and said "WHAT?! Shots and boobies do NOT go together. That is just WIERD!" Yes, my love, they do NOT go together.

And once again I find myself waiting for that call. Waiting to hear my fate. This SUCKS.

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  1. Renee RonikaJuly 18, 2013 at 11:49 PM

    Melissa,

    I celebrate with you the amazingness of your realizing your dreams, and I pray alongside and for you regarding this lump issue. May it be nothing, in Jesus' name!

    Much love, sister.
    Renee

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