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I feel like a winning Super Bowl quarterback (without the big fat bonus though) who yells out right after the game "I'm going to Disneyland!" I just finished the toughest challenge of my life, and we are celebrating with a trip to Disneyland!! We booked it today, and Matt and I are quite possibly more excited than the girls are. I never thought I'd be the person who got excited about a family vacation to Disneyland. I mean, really..I've been to Europe a few times. I love Mexico. Matt and I went to the Cook Islands for our honeymoon. So Disneyland just never made my "top 10" places to go. But then again, I've never had an almost 5 year old and a 2 year old before. And I've never missed spending so much family time together as I have over the past few months.

So not only are we going to Disneyland, but we're going to stay at the Grand Californian - cause we're fancy like that ...and mostly because we feel like we've all earned it. We showed the girls pictures and videos over the weekend and they are both ecstatic. Charlie refused to go to bed one night because she thought we were going RIGHT THEN to Disneyland. She cried for a while saying "I want to go Disneyyand. I want to see Pluto and Goofy." Of course we don't expect her to understand that we're not going until September. Unlike Reagan, who we told one time that we're going on September 5, and she keeps telling everyone now the exact dates we'll be there.

But then when I think about it, life is funny. We're always looking forward to something. For so long I wrote about how I just wanted it to be June. I just wanted to be done with chemo. Here we are - June - and I'm done with chemo. And already I'm saying how I can't wait for September....  Well, the reality is that I can't wait for September. But I am also so beyond happy with where I am right now. It really hit me today that this is the first Monday since March that I don't have to cram everything into one week, my good week, because I'll be down for the count again in a week. I won't be. Next week I'll be feeling even better than I am now. That's almost unbelievable to me.

I have my mapping session for radiation next Tuesday, and then a visit with Dr. Adler on Wednesday. This week, I have NO doctor appointments. And with Chris and Hannah coming on Weds, this may be the best week of 2011 yet!!

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  1. MamaJune 21, 2011 at 10:11 AM

    And a whole lifetime of good weeks to come!!! You deserve a wonderful vacation after all the agony you have been through since December! Life is a rollercoaster with ups and downs and you've had a real down time and are ready for the ups life has to offer. Enjoy every minute. Love Mama

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  2. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 12:54 PM

    Melissa, you are a true warrior. I have been following your blog every step of the way. I have cried with you and clapped for joy with you. You all deserve a trip to the "happiest place on earth". I am so happy for you that chemo is over. Only good weeks from here on out. Keep smiling!!! Love, Angela

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