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Pre Op - Round 1

With 72 hours left with "the girls," I woke up today thinking of what I can do with them that they hadn't ever done before. But I looked at my list of things I need to do before Friday, and realized that I have a months worth of stuff to do in just 3 days.

I spent all morning cleaning and running errands. This afternoon, I picked up Jess and we headed back to Dr. Griffin's (or, as Jess says, Dr. Awesome ) office for my first pre-op appointment of the week. This visit was a complete mixture of fear and excitement. The before and after pictures of prior patients who had the same surgery are beyond impressive. I've seen them before, but they amaze me every time. In 1-3 years, the scarring should be gone and I will look as good as new! However, he threw in a few pictures of how I'm going to look immediately following surgery. There were quite a few tubes and drains there that I wish I didn't know about. Unfortunately, it's going to be pretty ugly for a while....I am going to have to learn to suck it up and deal with stitches and drains for a few weeks.

He was telling us that both he and Dr. Metkus will be working on me simultaneously. It's very odd to think that two doctors will be cutting me open in two places at once. And when I talk to Dr. Griffin, I can pretend that I am just getting a boob job and tummy tuck - but then I remember the reality of the situation again. I'm scared of what they are going to find. I pray that this really was caught early... and we'll know for sure in 72 hours.

But the BEST news of the day came when he said I could have a glass of wine tonight!!! So Cheers, Dr. Awesome! See you on Friday!

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